No bad news is a good news

星期五放咗半日SICK LEAVE，因為完咗PERIOD，要返醫生度覆診。因為係平日，老公要返工陪唔到我去，所以我要自己一個人去。

其實，今次去覆診都好緊張。因為係試食咗第一排避孕藥之後去做檢查，睇吓D避孕藥對我係咪真係有效。如果無效嘅話，就要試第二樣。

今次去到，又係例牌等醫生半個鐘有多。入到診症室，我就講返晒我食完藥之後嘅情況比佢聽。因為我食完D避孕藥之後，右左邊都痛得好緊要，痛到我有D想嘔同暈嘅感覺，但醫生竟然同我講，女人有經痛係好正常嘅事，好多人都係咁架啦。

跟住佢就同我CHECK 超聲波。今次見到個卵巢真係無之前咁多泡泡啦。醫生話D避孕藥對我起作用，令到D泡泡消咗好多。佢話照咁睇，我之前應該係荷爾蒙分泌唔平衡，所以先會有咁多泡泡。佢建議我食多兩排避孕藥，等所以泡泡都清晒，先再食排卵藥。

不過，我同佢講每食完一排藥係咪會嚟一次經，佢話都係架，不過就唔會有排卵住囉。但我話食完藥嚟經會好痛架喎。之後佢竟然同我講，其實好多人都經痛架啦，要生完仔先至會唔痛架。如果我唔想生其實都唔洗食嘅，咁咪唔洗痛囉。吹脹。我唔想嘅話，洗乜嚟睇醫生呀。我話咁又唔好，應該都係痛多幾次架啫。希望我真係可以開口中啦。 ^_^

Good Handling

I 've got a new that my friend's wife is pregnancy. I am sure that would be a shocking news for me if I heard that few weeks ago. However, it is not as shocking as I supposed. Even my friend kidded me for asking any pressure from that. I replied gently, "There is something is out of my control, and just let it be." After I said that, it surprised myself as well. I doubt whether I do what I say, really?

In fact, I should say that I was thinking too much on such topic in the past few months. I did not only push myself hard, but also Siupang. It's not fair and is cruel to him.

Just like bible mentions, people can see what they miss, but not what they have. Yes, I agree with that. I also recognize I am the one too. I just focused on what I eager and what I miss. And, I forgot to appreciate what I have.

Actually, I am lucky what I should say. I have a good family. They are forgiving, and love me most. I have an excellent husband. I have a good job. I can earn and pay myself. I have my own flat. I have my friends. Words cannot help to describe what I have completely.

I should be happy, why not? There should be something wrong in my mind. I am trying to pick the negative thinking out, clean up my mind, enjoy my life, and share my joy and happiness to people all around me. Yes, that's what I was born to, I believe.

好煩呀……煩死我啦。

唔好再問我幾時生呀。邊個會識答呢條問題呀。

正如我問你幾時發達同幾時死一樣。有邊個會識答呢D問題。

做乜要我"恨"吓?!

你有個孫又點呀?
咩叫比D相我睇等我"恨"吓?!
"恨"同"唔恨"咁又點?

你有個孫我都好登你開心，比D相我睇咪比囉，做乜要講句咁嘅嘢呢?
咁大個人都口不擇言。

鍾意曬龕咪行出街曬囉，無人阻住你，行出街瞓喺度曬啦。

佢又有……佢又有……點解我無……

佢同我講：『幫我BB 改返個A字頭嘅英文名呀……』
佢同我講：『你話我個女叫"諾彤"好，定係"翱晴"好呀……』
佢同我講：『揀咗8月15號喺養和開刀生呀……』
佢同我講：『今日已經係37週5日啦……』

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繼續發燒

今朝起身成身無力，探咗熱89.X度，老公叫我唔好返工。點得呀，應承咗今日完個UAT，仲差一個JOB FLOW，成四頁紙架，都無行。諗住返去都係吩咐個廣州同事做，自己可以唔洗出咁多力。所以就爬咗起身返工啦。

誰不知個廣州同事，吩咐咗佢做。做完一次，四個鐘，洗唔洗咁耐呀?!點知原來中途已經錯咗，又唔CHECK LOG，係咪玩嘢呀。OK!我MON住你逐個JOB 做。四個鐘之後，見到個LOG都仲係有D問題。明明USER比嘅INTERFACE有4個，點解只係GENERATE到2個架。4個鐘又4個鐘，唉，再搞落去都唔知會唔會收唔到工。都係我自己嚟啦。

六點鐘開始病住嚟做，八鐘幾就行晒D JOB。仲要執返晒廣州同事D甩漏。早知係咁今朝一早自己做啦。起碼都仲可以有多兩個鐘做自己嘢呀。而家我D嘢都仲未做晒，星期一返去又要執返自己壇嘢，係咪玩嘢呀。

放工返到屋企都十點啦。好在老公煲咗粥比我食。佢仲買咗尋晚買唔到嘅退熱貼比我呀。我返到嚟再探吓身溫，又99.X度啦。又燒過啦。 -_-

發燒添

今次發燒果個係我呀。今朝已經喉嚨痛架啦，返到公司忙完一日之後，頭暈暈咁樣返屋企。覺得個頭重重，探完熱，99.4度。我諗都算係發燒呱。

食完飯個人呆呆地，有D作嘔。老公摸到我個頭好熱，落咗街買退熱貼比我。佢只係比我上網一陣咋，佢買完返嚟，我就要瞓覺啦。不過，我個頭真係好重呀。

覆診2

去完澳洲之後，去咗韓醫生度覆診。上次醫生比咗D通經葯我，叫我一嚟就要約時間覆診。可惜，我嘅情況真係好難搞，m都唔m吓。

所以，我自動自覺去約醫生，再睇吓點情況。醫生今日同我再照多次超聲波，話我兩邊都仲係好多泡，一定要清晒佢先得。佢比咗一排避孕藥我，話避孕藥可以抑壓住D泡泡同等D泡泡自己收返。如果食避孕藥唔得嘅話，就要打停經針，都仲係清唔到嘅話，就要做手術或者食糖尿藥。目的都係為咗清晒D泡泡。清完D泡泡就可以食排卵丸啦。

雖然我好唔想食避孕藥，但如果真係可以清到D泡泡，可以快D達成我哋兩公婆嘅心願。呢步一定要行架。希望一排避孕藥就可以啦。

麻煩嘅根源

今日本來可以同公司嘅同事去釣墨魚架，但係撞正太奶奶生日，無緊要我都好鍾意同親戚食飯傾計，所以我無JOIN到公司個墨魚團呀。

本來今日心情都唔係幾好，尋晚又瞓唔著，一早五點幾就起咗身。無問題，咁咪去食早餐囉。事原今日要做BODY CHECK，八點後就唔可以再食嘅架啦。所以，一早就食咗先。

返到嚟，我去練琴，老公去再瞓過。奶奶約咗老公幫手拎嘢去太奶奶度。奶奶十點度打嚟，約實老公之餘，又嚟搞我。無啦啦又同老公講，叫我今晚去食飯要酙茶比太奶奶。我心諗：又酙咩茶呀，都結咗婚半年有多啦。次次見親都酙茶，酙到幾時呀。上次舅公生日又酙茶，個心都覺得有無搞錯呀，結咗婚五個幾月啦，又酙茶，結婚果日都已經酙到跪喺地下無起過身咁制，有咩人都酙晒啦。OK, 上次老公話酙埋比舅公，以後都唔酙。佢講得咁型，我梗係信佢啦。

點知今日奶奶又酙茶癮起，又叫我酙茶。老公聽完同我講，睇我反應。我即刻唔好老脾。又係你話酙埋上次嘅，今次你唔係會幫我推你亞媽架咩?!OK，你唔推我，但我話我唔酙囉，成日都酙，酙到幾時啫，姑姐都有新抱，又唔見人哋次次出嚟食飯都酙茶。點知老公話你唔酙不如唔好去食飯喎。喂，大佬，而家個問題喺我度咩?我做乜要唔去食飯呀，仲有我又推咗唔去釣墨魚出席家庭活動，到頭來你叫我唔好去。咁我去邊呀，一個人食咩呀? 火都嚟。仲有呀，而家個問題係亞奶奶成日都要我酙茶嘛。我避得一時都唔避得一世架，唔通以後都唔出度家庭活動呀?我又無做錯嘢。

最後，老公打返去同奶奶講唔酙茶得唔得。我唔知奶奶喺電話度同老公講乜呀，淨係聽到老公話今晚要酙茶嘅話，咁我哋今晚唔嚟啦。佢哋再講咗一陣，老公同我講今晚唔洗酙茶。

唔知奶奶會唔會覺得我好唔聽話呢?不過，唔酙茶就叫唔聽話，咁我只不過係之前聽得話太多，所以而家學會唔聽話囉。

憂心忡忡

上個星期尾，同Amanda傾咗一陣SameTime，都係傾吓D女人嘢。之後就抽起條根去做一個婦科檢查。大致都無咩問題，只係醫生同我講咗D嘢，令到我到而家都仲係好擔心。

其實，個醫生一見到我，咩都未做，只係睇咗我嘅個人資料，就同我講仲唔生就好難生。我諗係因為呢個醫生比較傳統，女人三十出頭，都好應該做媽咪。所以佢咩都未做，就咁同我講，我覺得佢有D先入為主。我去做檢查係想了解自己身體多D，我明白我要聽取醫生嘅意見，但都唔可以有佢講無我講。

但議是論事，我好清楚醫生係以病人為大前題嘅立場。佢所講嘅所有嘢我都會聽，就係因為咁我就更擔心我嘅情況。我講唔出我有幾擔心，但每次諗起眼淚都忍唔住。但我同老公講完，老公覺得好似好小事，係咪我太過緊張呢。不過，正如我講啦，我相信醫生，而我更相信我老公，我相信有咩事佢都會喺我身邊。

要做足準備

啱啱結咗婚一個月多少少，啱啱好辛苦咁(我覺得好辛苦架!!!!!)趕起咗個PROJECT。

所以都係時候PREPARE NEXT STEP。今日買咗一樽葉酸，一樽有100粒，每日食一粒。如果可以如願以償的話，應該食兩樽度啦，就可以食下一種啦。但喺呢個時候，仲要去做個全面嘅身體檢查。不過，我好驚做全面嘅身體檢查架。可能係亞媽由細到大嘅歪理灌輸，"無事無幹檢咩查呀，一陣查到有事又擔心又要醫，無事嘅又晒錢"。一直潛移默化，我都好怕到時CHECK到有咩事，都唔知點算。

不過，為咗屋企，我點都會去做個FULL BODY CHECK嘅，希望一切健康同埋早日達到目的啦。阿里吉帝。

第一個年三十晚

農曆新年過咗廿幾個啦。今年係最特別嘅一年，因為今年係第一年要執自己屋企，有好多嘢要執要洗；第一年要派利是，都唔知要封幾多，老公話封定D，唔夠遲吓再封喎；第一年辦年貨，同老公兩個要諗送咩比D長輩。

我哋兩個仲著咗紅色睡衣，希望今年老公賺多D錢啦，心想事成啦，步步高陞。最緊要都係身體健康。

放假啦.......要派利是呀

終於都要過年啦，趕咗一個禮拜PROJECT，捱咗一個禮拜夜。終於都可以放假啦。我就當然辛苦啦，但我肉痛嘅係我老公呀。每日我做到幾夜，老公就陪我陪到幾夜，真係辛苦咗老公啦。

老公除咗陪我陪到好夜，佢仲差唔多晚晚都煮飯等我，仲留埋飯我第二日帶添。仲有洗衫啦，洗碗啦，真係一個無敵好老公呀，好冧呀。

唔只咁呀，有一晚我喺屋企做公司嘢做到無晒心機，走入房練琴。練琴之前，同老公戲言咗一句，"你坐喺我隔離，陪我練琴。"點知老公真係乖乖咁坐喺我隔離一路陪我。搞到我都有D覺得自己刁蠻。

我真係就嚟比老公縱壞啦，好幸福呀。 ^^

人唔知足……尤其係女人

婚後嘅生活，只有兩個字可以形容--"美滿"。

老公真係一個好男人，一個好錫老婆嘅老公。大家都一樣要返工，佢都只係比我早個幾鐘頭放工，就主動返屋企煮定飯。我今日返到屋企，已經準備好晚飯可以食啦。我只係乖乖咁幫手擺好碗筷，由廚房拎餸出飯廳。仲好好味添呀。

而家嘅生活真係--我敢講一句，"我好幸福呀。"

不過，都話人係唔知足嘅，我當然仲有唔滿意嘅地方啦。但唔滿意嘅地方絶對唔關老公事。係我唔想再要趕PROJECT啫。如果可以唔做CTI呢個PROJECT。我嘅人生真係幸福到爆呀。

婚後一個星期

咁快就過咗一個星期啦，好幸福嘅一個星期。仲好似發緊夢咁。

鵬爺仍然係鵬爺，而家已經係我老公，比以前更錫我，更照顧我嘅老公。
屋企人仍然都係我屋企人，而家比以前多咗最少四個好親嘅家人，外冷內熱嘅老爺，賢妻良母型嘅奶奶，獨立同善解人意嘅姑仔小琼。

每日起身都有老公喺身邊，除咗返工，老公無時無刻都陪住我，去街拖到實，坐車"挨"到實，瞓覺摟到實，有一個人咁錫自己，咁保護自己，感覺好好，真係覺得自己好幸福，幸福到一個自己都唔相信嘅地步，好怕有一日夢醒。

如果呢個真係一個夢，就讓我們一輩子，甜甜的一同沉睡下去。

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老公今日陪我去科大影畢業相，今日好凍呀，朝早得九度，係2009年最凍嘅一日。明知科大會好大風，好凍，老公都仍然陪我去影相，仲要做我嘅攝影師添。
然後，就同我去咗九龍灣行街，仲買咗個鋼琴，星期六就會送嚟啦。

從細到大嘅願望，都慢慢地成真。都係因為有一個對我好好嘅老公。 ^_^